Yes, she was not my best friend

We were never best friends, and probably will never be. But she was there for me when nobody else was. She cared when nobody else had time to spare a thought for me. I have acknowledged the role that many people played in my life so far, I missed out on this one. I never got a chance to thank her for all that she did for me, for being my guide, my strength. She was there to hold my back every time i fell, to lend a shoulder every time i cried. To accept me with all the faults that I was made of. Yes, she was not my best friend, she was a true friend.

We have fought a million times, I tore apart books, yelled at her, maybe even hit her and gotten hit too. She has annoyed me to no extent sometimes, I have wished for days when I would be alone without her constant presence and sweet talk. Now my wish has come true. I dont get to see that cheerful, encouraging face every morning. Now i miss it. I miss not sharing my chips. I miss fighting over that last spoon of noodles, I miss her opinion on everything. Yes, she was not my best friend, she was the sister I never had.

I may have not told her everything about my life, but that's who I am. I can't always confide in people. Sometimes, its my strength, sometimes its my weakness. Here, its more the latter. She knew that I had secrets. And it may have hurt her. But she did not show it. She had her dreams of how she wanted her relationships with friends to blossom, ours was never what she dreamt of. But she never walked off. She helped me through every difficult phase that I've seen, sometimes even without knowing the reason behind why I was upset or doing badly.Yes, she was not my best friend, she saved my soul.

Now that I sit back and think about the wonderful times that we shared, I realise what an important person she was in my life. I will never forget that calm, creative, cheerful person that she was. Whenever you read this, I hope you understand that it is dedicated to you and the wonder that you are. I miss you and I want to say thank you for all that you have done for me. I owe you big time. Mwah!